I create because I need to make sense of the contradictions in my mind, the tension between chaos and control, visibility and invisibility, structure and disarray. My work explores themes of identity, neurodiversity, and the experience of feeling like an outsider in a world that often feels too loud, too fast, or just slightly out of reach. This book is both a reflection and an unraveling of those experiences. Originally envisioned as a combination of photography, illustration, and borrowed words, the project evolved into something more personal, an intimate dialogue between images and thoughts, a visual journal of what it means to exist with social anxiety and ADHD. The illustrations are paired with their “duos”, altered, mirrored, or fragmented versions of themselves, mirroring the ways perception shifts, how memories distort, and how identity is constantly reframed. The structure of the book moves from portrait to landscape orientation, subtly changing perspective as it unfolds, reflecting the fluidity of self-perception. Physically, the book itself carries meaning. The front cover, a collage of one of the illustrations in multiple color variations, has been cut apart and stitched back together, both fractured and mended, both fragile and resilient. The contrast between the flexible front cover and the rigid back cover mirrors the tension between movement and stillness, vulnerability and structure. This work is an exploration of what it means to feel at odds with yourself and the world around you. It embraces the dissonance, the distortions, the in-between spaces where clarity flickers in and out. It is a reflection of my own experience but also an invitation, to those who have ever felt othered, overwhelmed, or out of sync, to find fragments of themselves in these pages.